Rewiring| What does it mean to rewire the brain after years of extended trauma?

The concept of rewiring

It all starts with the set of programming we receive as children.

The things we see and are told by our fellow proximity to those surrounding us.

We begin this existence in the hands of two energies, feminine and masculine. That being our parents. We received the program that they would like us to receive.

So what if our parents have not healed? Or have not attempted to do so.

Obviously, we will be embedded with the damage.

For me personally, I had two biological parents who made the choice every day to give up.

It was never about the children. It was about how they felt sad or scared. So they sat in boxes of fear. Encaged by their own doubts. Limiting their power to provide.

This lack created programming in I, that I must be the adult the one to give. The one to provide. At the ripe age of six years old, I was teaching myself to be independent. My brain programmed the image of weakness in feminine and masculine energy. My adopted family then extended this fear. I received emotional, mental, and spiritual abuse from this placement. Constantly belittled. Because of the smallness, they felt. I was aware it was not mine to take in, yet I still consumed it, because that is what they wanted me to do. Putting myself to one side is what I was taught to do, and not to trust anyone is what I was told. You will never be a boss, I was told. You only do good because you kiss ass, is what I was told. At the young age of 9 to 16, I was induced with fear and hatred. Created all by those around me. Embodied that weakness that was projected onto me was how I survived. The inability to stand up for myself. As I became more of myself in college, away from everyone. I began to realize I have a self. I am me. These thoughts progressed into wanting more for myself. I always looked at the adults in my childhood and told myself I would never be like that. Because they all seemed so stuck in a loop of hatred upon self. I wanted to change that within myself.

I began to understand the concepts of internal communication. As I had been doing it for so long, I never realized how powerful my internal connection with myself was. But my external connection was lacking. As the trauma created a disconnection from my physical body. This I knew because of my muscular tightness and mental exhaustion. Which was generated by holding in emotions. Energy in motion was disturbed, creating blockages in my physical body. I have yet to complete the release.

Being that I had only one choice. That being to communicate with myself. I asked myself every day what it was I wanted and how I could obtain it. I sought out ways to help myself. There are always days when it feels like there is no progression. Trust in self. If you have the ability to acknowledge the work that needs to be done, you have already begun rewiring your brain.

Now, say you hold awareness of the things you would like to rewire. What are the next steps if I am only aware of the change that needs to occur?

Began with the establishment of the connections that you deserve.

This can be as simple as visualization,

This allows the brain to establish imagery of the desire.

And as we are internal before external. Recognizing what it is we truly want is part of the first step.

That internal establishment that you have created is now beginning to project externally.

Another way to allow oneself to rewire is to acknowledge the source of the position you stand in. Was this told to you or did you create this idea for yourself?

This rewiring, which needs to occur, will not complete itself overnight; it is something one will forever be working with.

The importance of rewiring is that it allows one to release the trauma they hold within. As our body, our physical, our external responds to the internal, the ether, the flow. If we are internally communicating with fear, it will project onto the current of our physical bodies.

Creating a constant mode of survival.

Rewiring creates a constant mode of flow.

I hope this blog helps you on your journey. As we are not alone on this healing current.