what being alone at a young age taught me:

At a very young age it was upon me that I would sustain a period of time alone. Away from everyone and everything I have ever known. Being in this isolation brought me to a couple of realizations.

The first being my emotions( energy in motion). Having had to feel so much at such a fast rate was so much of overwhelming. These feelings opened my awareness to what was going on internally. I could not still fully understand what it was that I was facing. I sure did innerstand why it was happening. Over time I thought ignoring the energy in motion would benefit me. Yet here I am trying to recover from this blockage. My emotions were what brought guidance to my understanding of those around me. I learned to communicate with my internal body.

The second lesson I learned was how important it is to actually have this alone time. After all the chaos around one, it was nice to slow back down in one's own space. This is something I still practice today. Most of it has caused some damage to the connections in my brain. As I can tend to reside from communicating with others because I have developed a mechanism of coping. Mechanisms in which have led me to believe I have to completely captivate myself in my own space.

The third lesson I gained from being alone is that one's mind can and will cave in on oneself. Maybe this is why prisons, mental institutions and schools are all set up the same. At a young age with only my own thoughts to establish my reality and the actions that those have done to me. It was easy so to say to ramble to myself about the possibilities. This resulting in an overwhelming build up of fear. I had to gain an idea of how to stop the madness.

The last lesson I learned while being alone at a young age would be patience. I had to grasp an innerstanding of this while waiting everyday for something to possibly change. Whether that was being "saved" or hoping that my biological parents gained some sense. Waiting days in and out, established a concept of patience in me. As I could not sit around all day waiting at the edge of my seat. I learned to do things while I waited, I learned to create while I waited.

Today the memory of being alone at a young age triggers me. Triggers the thought of my loneliness while being alone. This aloneness caused me to feel lonely even after people came into my life.

All this to say that many of us have been forced to be alone at a young age. Which may have resulted in some pain that needs healing. As the awareness of the pain arises, one must acknowledge the patterns that need rerouting.